The world will surely know my name. Like the matinee sign lit up in neon my name will burn in the endless night sky.
And you. Oh, you. Sizzled in your memory I will live on forever.
I wasn't much to look at, unapologetically plain. I wasn't the brightest either but I knew my way around. I was one of those who just like furniture was handy when needed or just collecting dust in the background. I knew my life wouldn't account to much. I'd be living till the good lord decided otherwise. All in all just about as plain as any jane could be, that is untill you.
Oh,you. Like a hurricane disguised as a cool breeze you wafted in and left me destroyed in your path. It wasn't even planned. I was just a casualty in the grand scheme of things. A casualty you took too casual till I decided that I was way too epic to just be casual.
But, I'm getting ahead of myself
There was a fire. I was the starter and you the saviour. You jumped in like you belonged, pulled many out with ur bare hands. I was too mesmerized to act. I stood my ground, fire buring thru my boots as I watched you selflessly save as many as you could. You noticed me from the corner of your eye and yelled something in my direction. Your warnings were masked by the sounds of chaos and death. I watched you try and push ur way to me. I waited with baited breath. I waited for you with glowing eyes and buring skin waiting for you. For you to save me.
The beam took you by surprise. It seemed to knock the wind out of you. It was this instance that I saw it. The fear. The tremble in your step. I wasnt worth the risk anymore. I saw you stop. I saw ur mouth close and the warnings decepate. You stood your ground. You stood there, in what seemed like 10 inches away from me and you watched me burn. My life wasnt worth wasting yours over. I watched your eyes go from helplessness to fear to horror as the fire consumed what was left of me. You stood there and watched me burn.
The accolades came rolling in. The good Samaritan risking his life for others. The fearless man walking into a burning building to save strangers. Did I cross your mind then? The flashing lights of the T.V crew erased my image from your eyes. I was just another casualty.
That night as you layed your head to sleep after the celebratory beers and champagne, the applause from the patrons of your favourite pub still ringing in the ears, did you think of me?
The girl you couldn't save because for all the praise and calls of being a hero you knew in your mind you were nothing but a coward. A yellow bellied, lily- livered covered who just stood there and watched me burn. You justified it ofcourse- ' I told her to run, I tried to help, there were others who needed me, Hell, she didn't want to be saved. She just stood there and I watched her burn'.
Days turned to months. The local Hero went back to just being the local drunk. I stayed. I stayed burning in you. I wouldnt leave. No amount of alcohol could take me away from your mind. The more I burnt the more you drank. The darker your world got the brighter my flames blazed on.
From the time I saw you I knew you were mine. So deep was my conviction for you that it burnt me alive.
You stood there and watched me burn and Oh what a show I gave you.
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